I need to start by saying I LOVE my life. It is messy and has its sad and painful moments, but it is mostly joy. After years of trying to do everything, I realized that that wasn't working well for me. I wasn't being the best me when I was stretched so thin. So, I started to let go to some things that I had held on to for so long. I was on a couple different boards at school and through the kids activities that had weekly and/or monthly meetings. I stepped back a bit and let other people have a turn. I still help out and am involved, but in more of a supportive role and with the ability to say "no" if needed.
I've struggled with my weight since being a mom. I had always been able to lose weight when I wanted to, so I wasn't worried with my first pregnancy about the weight that I gained....and I was so tired and felt so nauseous that I didn't push myself to stay active. I ate a lot of carbs, took a lot of naps, and gained a lot of weight. I hadn't quite lost all of the weight from baby 1 when I found out I was pregnant with baby 2. I did much better the second time around. It was easier with a toddler to chase. Not as much time for naps and built in mandatory daily activity. The weight from baby 2 came off very quickly. I'm still holding on to some of the weight from baby 1 and I have had a lot of trouble getting it off.
I've been on a journey the past year to try and adjust life so I reflect the "me" I want to present to others and to myself. Part of that journey is getting back to the healthier version of myself...and for me that includes weight loss and more exercise.
This is something I have been working on for years...and years...and years. I have tried diets and plans and products. The conclusion I have come to is that those are not the right path for me. I need a make over. I need to look at food differently. I need to look at exercise differently.
My dad shared with me last week about some oatmeal he has been making. I've been eating oatmeal some mornings too adding frozen blueberries to it. (The frozen berries cool off the oatmeal, and frozen fruit doesn't go bad as quickly! :)) He was telling me he was also butting peanut powder in his, That's such a great idea! Added protein will hopefully keep me fuller longer. :) I made some this morning. We'll see how it goes! :)
Anyone else on a similar journey?? Got any good tips to share?? :)
I can't forget that before I wore many of these hats, I was me. In order to succeed in my other roles I need to take care of myself too. This is a tough one because many of my other hats are more precious to me. I think many can relate to this.